A perspective, that is all.
The Secret Sway
I've seen you tread
to this tune before,
a sprawling waltz
that spins you
'round and 'round
as your mind
remains stagnant
on one thing alone.
Yet,
I must wonder
if, as you prance
about the dance floor,
you've forgotten
that a partner is required
for all your frolicking.
Again and again,
you call his name,
but in a whisper,
so quiet and secret
that even you
can hardly hear it.
You seem so proud
of the words you proclaim,
so why hide them
behind guises and song?
Show him the you
I knew long ago,
and surely we can start
the music once more
for a sweeping strut,
the two of you
so enthralled in the steps
that you hardly remember
a time beyond here and now.
I just don't want to see you
try and dip yourself
with no one to hold you up.
Saturday, November 24, 2012
Monday, November 12, 2012
And One More Thing...
Here is the first bit of the chapters I've been asked to write for a charity novel, whom my friend, Daz, is setting up. I don't expect ya'll to necessarily understand all of the context, as these chapters come into play late in the game, but all the same, thought ya'll might appreciate some posts. Again, any and all feedback is appreciated!
Journal Entry #__
As I write, I take a gasp of
fresh air in. Why does the world seem… lighter?
For the longest time, I’ve felt
my problems crashing into me again and again, and I’ve half expected one of
them to be the death of me. But, at last, I’ve met someone who understands me,
sees me for who I am. Lucy… writing her very name gives me a feeling of warmth.
Is this… hope, perhaps? … I don’t know if I’ve ever felt this before. When I
feel lonely or unsure, I sometimes hear her voice calling out to me repeatedly.
It’s comforting in moments of coldness and fear.
I’m thinking of clipping my
nails. A big step, I know. But I’m hesitant because they feel so… me. So
natural. I dunno. Maybe this is me growing into a different me. Or maybe I’m
just being stupid. These nails have always been here to protect me, things I
could rely on. Never would they betray me, yell in my face, throw me against a
wall. But do I need them, now that I have a real friend? … I’m not sure yet.
This may be the last entry for a
while. These moments for writing have gotten me through much, but I don’t want
to have to rely on them. And I can’t think of a better time than now to test
this theory. Hopefully, the rest of these pages can remain blank while my words
feel free to be spoken and fill my life. What I feel for Lucy can’t be
contained by just this book and longer. I think I’ll tell her just how I feel
about us next time I see her. I would talk to someone else about it first, and
make sure I’m doing the right thing, but who else is there for me to talk to?
She’s all I need now. Not my family, not all the assholes as school, not
this stupid journal.
Just her.
Officer Victor Bowers had been walking this beat for seventeen years, too
long if you asked him, and he was tired. No, not that kind of tired that you
feel when you wake early in the morning, hours before you should, only to lie
in bed for what feels like days, staring at the ceiling without a thought in
your head until you’re finally forced to drag yourself from the soft cushions
that had caressed your aching body and had kept you warm through the cold and
heartless night to drive to your cold and heartless job to sit for hours on end
without a thought in your head or a soft pillow to snuggle with. This is the
kind of tired that comes from doing this every day for seventeen year, from the
pain of watching partners come and go, watching victims live and die, criminals
shout and laugh, and days pass by but never truly feel different.
Victor had seen himself wither in the mirror, the result of a thankless
job in a thankless world full of the dead that narrate the lives of the living.
That’s how Victor had comes to see it anyway; a poor shmuck or another would
get shot in the back or stabbed in the throat or jammed into the trunk of a car
that was sent thundering off the edge of a cliff, and he would find himself following
the bloody bread crumbs left behind, like a twisted game of marco polo, except
there would only be one scream and Victor would never hear it.
And he would find that this night would be no different.
Victor’s feet felt the familiar rhythmic beat of his sullen shoes, if
they could even be called that anymore, slapping against the path that had been
paved and repaved every four years, yet would always feel just as harsh and
gruff, a retired war veteran sitting uncomfortably at attention in the uniform
of just another civilian, giving everyone around him intense and awkward
stares, unsure of how he was to interact with a world he could no longer
understand, no longer connect to, as if his travels made him a different
nationality altogether, belonging now to No Man’s Land, where Shell Shock and
Strife held the positions of power, where Poison Gas whispered secrets into the
ears of the unsuspecting, and where the only export was stories of sorrow,
often swapped between the dead as they made their ways to their respective
lives after life.
The officer felt sympathy for the stony geezer, knowing what it was like to
be trod on by every person that would enter his life. From his frigid ex-wife,
stealing his emotions out from under the sheets and leaving him with the child
she never wanted, to Chief Arnold Suttmann, better known to Victor and his
co-workers as Arnold “Soot-Hands”, breathing down his neck to catch the
criminals that the Chief was suspected to have created in the first place. Even
his son, Thomas, saw his father as nothing more than a means of getting out of
this godforsaken town one day. At the thought, Victor’s eyes trailed up to the
sky, as he wondered if The Big Man even bothered to look in the direction of
his rundown town anymore.
A blotchy hand, covered in freckles and thin, white hair, brushed the
sweat from his old and withered brow, his eyes having enough trouble seeing
through his cheap glasses without having droplets running across the lenses
like slugs, leaving a think and unsightly residue behind. Victor pulled the
optics from his face, his aging eyes blinking rapidly in the twilight as he
cleaned the glass on the front of his pristine, yet ill-fitting, uniform, much
too big for him, making him look like a child playing at being a man. As he
returned the glasses to his hooked nose, his blue opals magnified in the newly
cleaned clarity. He stretched his knobby knees, thankful for the brief respite
from the strenuous strides he knew by heart. Running his hands through his
bristly hair, a tall, grey broom of a buzz cut, he sneezed, flecks of snot and
saliva getting caught in his modest mustache that reached out to touch the
corners of his face but could not even graze the tips of his lips, a thin line
drawn neatly at the middle of his face, his frown wrapping around a small and
simple chin.
Recovering himself, Victor reluctantly strode on, his muscles moving and
flexing with every motion, a rippling tide just beneath his sea blue shirt. For
though he grew older, Victor would never allow himself to let go of the body he
built for dark and troubled nights such as these; how could he expect himself
to be a proper cop with the physique of a twig? Exercise had become a part of
his daily routine, something that he would not only set aside time for but do
every spare chance he got, whether it be on the subway or in a doctor’s waiting
room.
Civilians made room for Victor, knowing him on sight, not because of his
uniform, but rather his face. He was respected in this neck of the woods, a
grey angel that flitted about amongst the blue devils whom called themselves
his brothers. People knew to come to him when the going got tough so it would
be the injustice and villainy that was sent packing rather than the frightened
novices, freshly picked from a neighboring town without an inkling of an idea
of what a hard day’s work is, babied by their simple desk jobs, the nurses of
an infantile incoming crowd of so-called “five-oh”, taking cues from fantasies
flashing in front of their faces rather than the rough reality, to ragged for
their minds to wrap around. Victor feared a future quickly approaching when
children are handed guns and sent frolicking through the streets to play their foolish
games of cowboys and idiots, except everyone’s on the latter team, though they
may try and convince themselves otherwise.
The fresh smell of hotdogs, a combination of undercooked meat and
scorched grease, filled his nostrils as he passed the mom and pop stand. Though
he never bought the slimy excuse for a meal, Travis tossed whatever change he
had in his pocket into the tip jar every time he walked by. February twenty
third. The date was forever imprinted in his memory. The ear piercing screams,
the ice shattering sobs, and the stark contrast between the white snow and red
blood. This family had been through enough because of him; this eternal burden
on his back made him feel that a debt needed to be paid, but never truly could
be.
Victor felt a chill creep into his shirt like a lost puppy that has
returned to its master a savage beast of the wilderness. This villainous
creature had been making daily visits for the last three years or so, reminding
him of his growing frailty, a fact that he would fight against with every fiber
in his body. Yet how was he to battle an invisible and natural foe that grew
within? He hated himself for his weakness, a vat of anger boiling in his
stomach, clashing against his cold skin. But this chill was something more than
what he usually felt filling his old bones; it was the frigidness of sullen
alertness, sad alarm, a solemn knowledge. Victor shook himself, as if trying to
throw the feeling off his back, a weighty leech sucking at his strength for
dear life, teeth desperately plunged into his back, a violent sedative. A scowl
crossed his faced as the cold refused to let go, matching the street’s cross
stare as Victor strode briskly across it to reach the path of the adjacent
side.
Looking up from his frustrated predicament, the officer noticed a young
boy staring at the hardship written all over Victor’s face, a depressing
article with a sorrowful black and white picture to go along with it, as they
walked past one another. Victor didn’t take much notice of him, as he had his
own boy at home to look forward to seeing and felt no need to observe every
civilian that passed. Yet, despite his indifference, something strange caught
his eye, something he had not seen in all his days working in the tired town.
Hope, personified in a crooked grin sloppily spread over the youth’s face.
A few steps later, that smile was wiped from the world with a blood
stained Sedan screaming to a halt, crying out for the boy that no longer could.
And like that, Victor’s senses were alert, his heart steaming hot,
pumping molten energy, pushing an old body back to its former youth, yanking
time backwards and wrestling it, holding it in a bear hug, if only for a brief
moment so as to allow the body to remember a long lost past that should no
longer be possible, yet rears its head, groggy from a sleep that was never
supposed to end. His eyes were search lights, shining out of his head as he
swiftly spun himself around to assess the situation.
Nothing could have prepared him for such a sight. He stumbled a little;
Victor reassured himself that this was not his faltering body at work, but
rather the shock of such a dismal view making him feel like that car had hit
him, sending him careening to his hands and knees, mind fading to nothing more
than a distant siren, calling out in desperation, a car frightened that its
driver has suddenly disappeared from the front seat, screeching in hopes that
he may find his way back to the wheel. Red droplets of life dripped
rhythmically form the bumper hovering over the boy’s head, making him look like
he had a twisted case of chicken pox. Victor looked up to see the shocked face
of a sixteen year old boy, his face pocked and pimply, filled with horror and
self-doubt, seeing what he had done, knowing in his heart that there was no
taking it back. But he would try to back his way out of the situation, putting
his car in reverse, revving the gas as quickly as he could without getting more
blood on his hands. Victor acted without hesitation, shooting the three tires
that were in his sigh. He was rewarded with the crack of his pistol, the
backlash of each shot, and a satisfying pop only moments later. The vehicle
cried out with each shot, feeling its legs being cut out from under him,
leaving him to hobble to a pitiful sounding stop only a few feet from where it
was previously, whining softly as it slumped into place, red tears running from
the headlights.
Satisfied, Victor slipped his gun into his holster, moving towards the
perpetrator, fury shining in his eyes, but not mimicked in his steps, his
actions calm and practiced, a dance he had partaken in many a time before, although
most of his partners fell before it was over, leaving him to waltz through the
motions alone. This boy was going nowhere, quite the example of a deer caught
in headlights, his body shuddering in his self-made prison, penned in by the
onlookers around him and the fear within, chaining him to his crime.
And yet, the rest of the world looking in seemed nonplussed, as if this
was just… what happens, as if this was okay by any stretch of the imagination.
Most just kept walking, averting eyes and pretending to hear the birds chirping
as always. Other, crueler folk were cracking jokes, studying the collapsed
child, yet making no moves to get help, an action of kindness that was far
beneath them, having already given up this life for lost.
Suddenly, a car started honking at the limp body as if to say “Get out of
the way!”, expecting this ragdoll to somehow become animate again and stride
away, completely fine and full of vigor. Closer and closer the impatient car
drew, closing an already considerably small gap between the sorry arm and
strong rubber that threatened to crush its opposition, not deterred by the putrid
implications its actions suggested.
A rage overtook Victor for just a moment, but that’s all he needed. With
a burst of speed, the elderly man charged headlong out into the street,
spreading his legs over the silent victim like a ribbon holding the shattered
remains together, hoping to piece back the broken bits into something
resembling a someone. His lungs inflated with a passion, expanding into his
throat, clogging up his insides with emotion, only to let it all out in a
single burst, shouting at the driver, “Get your goddamned bumper out of this
boy’s ass!!!” The woman, in her mid-forties, stopped all she was doing, stunned
by the officer’s sudden appearance. Slowing the car to a stop, she raised her
hands in the air as if she was under arrest, a look of pure terror and utter
bewilderment plastered on her face like a crooked ad someone plastered along
the walls of just another rundown building, tattered and worn from the
weathered day. Sighing to himself out of frustration and relief, Victor
returned to his slowed gait, making his way over to the front seat. When all
the woman did was stare out at him out of confusion and fear, the officer
tapped on the window, gently but with an authority to it that reflected his
anger.
As the clear drawbridge that separated the pair began to lower, Victor’s
mind went into a mode all its own, as if a switch had been clicked in the back
of his head; he was now a robot, the police force’s machine programed with all
the answers, the laws, the by-the-book responses that were drilled in his mind
years ago after straight weeks of non-stop studying every last bloody word in
all his textbooks. It was a rude awakening to watch the sentences he
painstakingly memorized being trampled every passing day by the hypocrites who
wrote them.
“Ma’am, what in the world were you thinking?” Victor queried, taking the
approach of a baffled yet un-amused officer, hiding the hatred lying just under
his skin, threatening to grab his hand, if only to wring her throat for a
paltry moment so she might see for a brief moment in her self-centered life
that the world did not revolve around her.
“I just… officer, you gotta understand, I was… I was running late for-“
“For what, ma’am? What was so bloody important that you decided this boy’s life was well beyond your concern?”
“For what, ma’am? What was so bloody important that you decided this boy’s life was well beyond your concern?”
“Well, I… I just thought he was resting is all. Figured if I rolled up
close enough to him-”
“Please, ma’am, just stop. I’ll need you to talk with the head of my department when he comes ‘round to take care of things here.”
“Please, ma’am, just stop. I’ll need you to talk with the head of my department when he comes ‘round to take care of things here.”
“Surely you can’t be serious!” The appalled look on her face made Victor
want to vomit with disgust. “I simply must be on my way, sir, I-”
“Ma’am, please make this easier on yourself. If that boy bleeding out on
the street needs to wait, you sure as hell do as well.”
The cop cars
painted red and blue blotches across Victor’s face, mixing with the graying
ones that came naturally. Radios squawked, sirens squealed, orders were barked
with as much authority as could be mustered, but at this point there didn’t
seem to be much point left to most. The boy was going to die, that much seem to
be clear to the majority. The pricks, unable to give a moment’s hard work if
only to save a life. Victor’s head hung low, embarrassed to be a part of this
rag-tag rabble, nothing more than children playing at dress up and seeing how
much candy they can get from the world.
Chief Suttmann was at his
finest, leaning against the woman’s car provocatively as he questioned her of
what had happened, where she lived, if she was single, if they could have a
follow-up discussion of the evening at her quarters, etc. etc. This was what
Victor had come to expect. It saddened him deeply, beyond explanation, that
this could possibly be the norm, the commonplace shit he would have to trudge
through in his sneakers day after day.
Meanwhile, the perpetrator was
yelling up and down the street like a bloody banshee that was having its limbs
removed one by one. “It was only a joke!!!” he would cry, “I only meant to
scare him!!!” he would plead. He would try to justify that he knew the kid from
school, they were supposed friends; he was just “roughing him up” as the idiot
put it. The sorrowful shouts of a guilty conscious; Victor had heard them too
many times to count, most often in his sleep.
Slowly, Victor moved to the back
of the ambulance, where they were loading the boy like you would a tire,
roughly shoving it in before it could try and roll off the edge. As the medics
moved away, Victor approached, like a shy kitten slowly sidling up to the first
playmate it had ever met, unsure of what to do, how to react, or the courtesies
involved.
Victor took a damn good look,
forcing every last aspect of this child into his mind. From his short brown
hair, barely broaching his forehead, sad curls flopped against his head, to his
rotund ears, fans poking out of the sides of his head, certain to keep the heat
away from any summer’s day. His teeth looked rather pearly beneath the running
ruby red that flowed from his face. Cuts were pocked all across his cheeks,
sending Christmas ribbons sweeping over his pale skin, a sopping wet sheet of
paper. His clothes were tattered, but not from the incident; this boy had
probably never seen a set of clothes all his own in his entire life. His ragged
hands were accentuated by gleaming nails, freshly cut, as if straight from a
pedicure commercial. A pair of sturdy legs stuck from his underneath his skinny
torso, two toothpicks jammed in a carrot. Victor moved his hand over the boy’s
eyelids. He just wanted to see what was beneath, nothing more-
He leaped back, a sudden chill
running down his back. Those piercing blue eyes… The saw right through him,
looked into his soul, and shot through his past, all the way back to… February
twenty third. He could see the ice in his eyes as his brain froze over, never
to show life again. He dropped to his knees out of sheer disbelief that he had
let this happen again, slammed his fists against the ground out of complete
frustration. He let burst a scream of agony, one that he had held back for much
too long. All the hatred for his unfulfilled hope, all the pain caused by such
putrid people, all the sadness these sorry souls had to endure… It was just too
much now, much too much to bare.
A crowd of medics came rushing
over to see what was the matter, only to look on awkwardly as Victor cried to
himself, curled in a ball of helplessness; for once he could see the absurdity
in trying to help this lost cause any longer. The Chief rushed over, a look of
bewilderment and shiftiness stretched across his face. He looked about him
uncertainly as he bent over to whisper in Victor’s ear. “Cummon, officer, get
up off yer ass! I’ve got a date-umm-I-mean-interview to go to in five minutes,
and I’m sure as hell not leaving you in charge if yer sobbing behind some
goddamned ambulance!”
Victor rose to his feet slowly,
straightened his uniform, rubbed the tears from his eyes, and looked square in
the Chief’s face. “You won’t have to, Soot-Hands.” Tossing his badge on the
ground, Victor turned on one heel and walked away from it all. His ears were
deaf to the shouts of outrage crashing about the air behind him, blind to the
stunned onlookers as he unlocked the shackles from himself, freed this aging
body from the hurt he could bear no longer.
“Don’t think yer getting this
back if yah come in tomorrow, no sir!” Suttmann barked to no one in particular,
mostly for his own benefit.
Victor wondered just how long he
could bear simply lying in bed for hours on end. He imagined it, a half-smile
slowly creeping up his cheek.
William
Milton found himself dazed slumped in front of his desk as he stared at pile
upon disheartening pile of supposedly “important” papers. He often discovered
himself like this when he left his mind for a brief romp in his thoughts of
disconnection. Lack of sleep tended to act like a portal, bringing him to a
completely new world, a Narnia all his own, except he was the only resident and
it looked a damn lot like the shithole he came from. He didn’t find the frequency
of these visits to his other realm terribly surprising though; insomnia, he
found, had that effect on people.
He had seen many of a case of
this disorder while working at Saint Peter’s Hospital; when working from eight
in the morning until ten at night with only a ten minute lunch break, one has
the chance to see many different patients. One also gets the chance to pick up
many of these ailments; William could list off the coworkers who had bitten the
dust from working in this pit if he used both his fingers and toes. He had
feared that he was next for the longest time, yet more and more of his
acquaintances perished while he simply festered in the dark corner of the
hospital, if it could honestly be called that. A cemetery was more like it.
Saint Peter’s housed more corpses than it did patients on a daily basis;
William had to wonder what sick sort of necromancy Peter must have been a saint
of.
The doctor wasn’t anything that could be considered a religious man, but
rather a self-proclaimed apathetic. That is to say, he didn’t mind if there was
a god out there watching over him, but he didn’t have the drive or any real
motivation to find out one way or another, nor did he care. What did it matter
if there is or isn’t some powerful deity watching over us? We don’t know until
we’re dead, nor will we be affected by it, so why care until our deaths come?
Come… come to think of it, when was that last time someone came into my
office? William had to ponder in his distant outlandish mind that circled
about his body like a UFO searching for the perfect test subject. For his mind
clearly had no intention of settling on one topic, but rather bounce from idea
to concept to absurd fantasy to his day ended, or rather began as he would make
his slow journey back home only to sit in his armchair for hours on end and do
the exact same thing until his alarm informed him that it was time to return
for another hard day of pondering.
Some might say this would be a
lonely life, but William didn’t see it that way, nor did he mind if it was. So
many people had disappeared from the life presented to him that he figured that
this was just the way of the world and you never truly had anyone else but
yourself. He would sometimes create a second persona to talk to, his two selves
conversing for hours on end until they eventually became the same person in a
natural connection of like-minded individuals. His mind process, over time,
became so fluid that he would create his own lives to watch and take part in as
he saw fit, a personal cinema flashing behind his eyes, except occasionally
members of the audience were asked to take part in the film. William figured
this was the result of months of practice in simply thinking for hours and
hours on end, strengthening his mind’s eye until it was the only thing that
stared out from his head, his eyes permanently glazed with a mindless apathy
that harkened back to the sightless opals of the blind.
Blind to the chaos occurring
outside, William continued exploring his formless world for the answers to
questions that had already faded. It was only when Henry Greenhill crashed into
his office like a tiger through a bedroom that William became aware of the
sirens howling outside the walls of his asylum. Like removing a pair of
headphones, William pulled himself together to allow himself to begin forming
coherent sentences aloud. He would have to if this kid was ever going to shut
up.
“William, what in God’s name do
you think you’re doing? Can you not hear the sirens outside??? We have to get
going if this boy is gonna survive, let me tell you, he looks pretty messed up,
and I dunno how much longer he’s gonna stick around with us living folks unless
we get our asses in gear! Now, pull yourself together quick-like, and let’s get
a move on! The kid’s got some serious internal bleeding, I’m surprised he’s
made it as far as the hospital and- OMIGOD, William!!! Do you even care that
this boy’s gonna die??? He’s barely sixteen for Christ’s sake, have some
compassion man!!! Or better yet, do your damn job, you lazy shit! How- DARE
–you ignore the silent pleas of a dying patient, let alone a child! And in such
bad condition too… How are we going to save his life? Do we even have a-”
“We don’t know until we try, now
do we?” William asked nonchalantly, rising slowly from his chair like a vampire
from its coffin, stretching his cold, pale limbs before reaching for his white
coat that lied behind him, a dead skin that would slink into now and again to
play the part of dutiful doctor.
“How can you be so calm?!?”
Henry asked incredulously, a naïve look of terror and frustration painted
across his face like a grotesque clown mask. William found this amusing, but
kept his thoughts to himself; he figured it would do him no good if he enraged
this yappy intern any further. So, he instead responded by saying, “You call
this calm?”
Henry was taken a little aback
by this, not suspecting that a question would be thrown back at him. He chewed on
this for a few moments, like a dog gnawing on its bone to see if there’s be
anything worthwhile inside, perhaps a few scraps caught in the cracks. And,
suddenly, a look of realization and disgust grew from his eyes, a thorny vine
that spread swiftly to the rest of his face, pain etched into his cheeks and
mouth with each little prick. He then looked up, and, lashing out with those
violent tendrils, he said, “No. That’s not calm. Its listlessness. A level of
disregard and insensibility so fierce that nothing bothers you anymore, does
it? You just don’t fucking care.”
William was undeterred by this,
rather familiar with this sort of response; he had to, or else be given a
reason to care. And he didn’t need that. He had built up such a suit of armor
around him over time, a mighty shield that encased him with an apathy so strong
that nothing could pierce such a tenacious metal. He didn’t want it be
destroyed with a simple statement, one that could be tossed about just as
carelessly as himself. Instead of bothering responding, he pushed past the
jumpy man, who remained rooted firmly in his place, his stare seemingly
determined to spray venom on him as he walked on, unfascinated, uncaring. But
he figured he needed to do something, or else why have this goddamned job in
the first place?
… Yes, why have this job at all?
This was a thought that had crossed William’s mind many a time. And yet,
despite his persistent strikes at the base of the matter, it had yet to topple
over and reveal the answer hidden underneath. But he knew, deep down in his
chest, that there was a reason, a reason that he needed to discover. Perhaps
this was why he made his way to the entrance of the hospital, past the dull
faces he saw day after day yet never bothered to match up with names or personalities
or wants or needs or cares or loves or hates or lives. He just piled them all
up in his mind, one on top of the other, in a huge bin that he labeled “The
Dead Who Cannot Rest”; he found it easier for him this way. A lot less strain
or time was necessary for such an approach.
As he approached the doors that
led outside, he heard a squeaky call from behind him. “Oh no you don’t!” Henry
scrambled at the speed of a cheetah just learning how to use its legs, fast but
moving at a stumbling gait. A long screech filled the room as his shoes skidded
to a halt in front of William, who hadn’t bothered moving anymore, knowing that
it would be so much easier just to deal with him now than allow the one-sided
chase to go on any further.
“You think you can just walk out
and leave this boy to rot? Oh no mister, I don’t think so!! You may not care
about the life of another, but I sure as hell do!!! Now cummon!!!” Grabbing a
handful of William’s pristine uniform
Short Story Rough Draft
Here's the rough draft of a short story I'm working on. Any and all feedback is appreciated!
The Hero’s
Legacy
By Luke
Muench
With a certain hesitance that only comes from his own heartbeats echoing
in his ears, the Hero crept through the dark caverns, his footsteps sounding
like gunshots as he moved among the quietly dripping stalactites, the cave
crying to itself, out of sheer loneliness. No one had come this way, not for
centuries now.
That’s why he was
here. To revive this mess of a rock pile back to its former glory as the
central trading route of an endless flow of desperate people, all searching to make
a profit, often through the misfortune of each other. The walls recalled in its
ragged edges and winding paths when peals of laughter echoed across its once
smooth skin, children bouncing up and down its many tunnels as merchants stoically
and solemnly before the judging gazes of thousands looking for a bargain. It
had once watched, unburdened by emotions, as people made millions and lost it
all in a single evening, throwing their livelihoods to the wind as they danced
a dangerous waltz of wastefulness, buying up the inessential and tossing it
aside to the lowly when their fun was done.
Now its weary eyes
glanced down as this single adventurer made his way through his domain; and for
what? There was no hope left for this barren land. How could this one man how
to fix anything?
The Hero was
thinking that very same thought as trudged through his murky doubts, his boots
occasionally becoming stuck in the thick muck. Yet, again and again he raised
his foot again to press on.
Suddenly, there
sounded behind him a crunch, the noises of bone being torn away from its owner,
attempting to escape the emptiness that the thin layer of skin housed. Turning
slowly, sword raised in one hand, lantern in the other, he discovered a feral
creature, a hideous jackal-like being, hidden within the dark confines of
shadow, a dear friend to all fiends. Realizing it had been discovered, it
lightly cursed to itself, its voice sounding as violent as that of a newborn
baby being ripped from its mother’s grip, yet as distraught as the mother’s
cries of anguish. He, on the other hand, was frozen with terror, such a simple
noise sending shivers up his back, clutching his spine as a dying man does his
wife’s hand, wanting to never let go.
A beat passed as the opponents’ eyes held each other’s,
the silent handshake of foes on the battlefield.
Without warning, the creature lunged with a vicious
fury, spittle spraying anger into the air. Fear grasped the Hero’s throat, a
strangle hold that nearly brought the grown man to his knees. He had never been
forced to fight someone before. He knew the moment would have to come
eventually, but knowing this and facing this are completely different matters.
His eyes flickered shut as he slashed at the air blindly, praying that the
sword might catch on something, anything, until, finally, his blade ceased to
swing. Opening his eyes slowly, he found that the creature’s neck had grabbed
hold of his sword, two long, blood red fingers sliding out of the wound, wrapped
around the shining silver blade. He tried ripping it away from the fiend, yet his
attempts were as futile as a rat’s yearning to gnaw a hole into a metal wall.
That’s when she spoke.
“You,” she gasped through the metal lifeline in her
neck, struggling slightly to hiss even that syllable.
The Hero looked closer, past the beastly exterior of
this being, beyond the dripping blood tick-tocking her time left amongst the
living, and shuddered. “Yessssss,” she hissed at him, cackling as he had always
imagined the witches of old wives tales had, back when they were more than just
wives tales. “Look into my blood, dear husband,” his wife cooed softly, looking
into his tear filled eyes. Then, swiftly, she bulked herself up, towering over
the sniveling man. “AND SEE WHAT YOU’VE BECOME!!!” she cried venomously, her
eyes bulging, muscles ripping away from her bones, veins pulling at the skin
that long ago had been soft, pure, nearly heavenly, or so he had viewed it. But
no longer; not since the horrors of the world had arrived at his doorstep,
threatening to take her away.
And, finally, the sword fell from the caved in windpipe.
Blood gushed out, red at first, then a midnight black that put the skies of
hell to shame, coating him in misery and woe, stifling his cries under wave
upon wave of the tar like substance. Soon he felt himself drowning under the
darkness, a frightening but somehow soothing sensations, offering to cease his
suffering forever. But he knew his job, why he had to struggle onwards.
Bursting from the boiling, black lake of a life lost long ago, he pushed on.
When he felt a hand on his shoulder.
Spinning about, he came face to face with what could
only be described as his mummified wife, liquids and organs all having checked
out at the reception desk , nothing left but a sorry skin, tearing at his own
flesh, trying to consume it, wear it, and allow herself to live once again.
“You said that only in death may we part, honey,” a wispy, nearly inaudible
voice ran up his shirt, swerving around his ears, searching for the quickest
entry to her rebirth, its icy touch caressing his very core. “So let us live
on, together,” she beckoned, wrapping her skin around him, pulling him bodily to
the ground.
His screams’ intensity shook his very foundation, yet no
noise came. Again and again he called her name, called out to the world,
cursing how unfair and evil it was, destroying him with every step he took
towards a goal he couldn’t even call his own.
The Hero awoke to two sharp snaps; one of his neck as it lurched up in
fright and shock, the other of the figure that hovered alongside the Hero’s
bed, the transparent being’s fingers swiftly brushing across each other, a fire
that dripped red flames sparking between them. The Hero watched as the flame
spread across the arm of his companion, a bloody puddle forming beneath him, a tall,
gangly boy, appearing not much older than seventeen, his eyes a bright electric
blue. So much strength to them, such a fierce source of raw energy, the Hero
contemplated. Yet he found no humor in the irony of it all, that such a passion
could be found in the dead while the living drifted about like silent shadows
of themselves; he was still much too shaken by his sudden return from the world
of sleep. He observed as the fiery tendrils reached over the boy’s arms, past
his chest, groping for his eyeballs, and, just as the red energy reached its
goal, the flames disappeared, sucked into the void of the bright orbs.
The room grew deathly cold, and the Hero could now
clearly feel the cold sweat that he swam in, his clothing a pool to contain all
the fear so distant now, caught in the doorway to his dreams.
“Why must you do that, Tyler, you filthy bastard?” the
Hero whispered quietly, afraid to speak, his bravery stolen in his slumber,
slipped out from under his sheets.
“Why, surely you mustn’t be bothered by such rudimentary
magic tricks, old man?” Tyler mocked, doing a back flip, sending silvery
shadows across the walls, little minions hovering at his sides, waiting for a
command.
“You know exactly what I mean,” the Hero barked,
beginning to find courage in the anger that spout from his lips, pushing him
out of his bed, facing the boy with a scowl spread below his nose, a coat hanger
suspended on his ruffled mustache, in dire need of a trim. Wrinkles formed
around his grimace, a team executing a well-practiced routine. His eyes,
however, told a very different story; though his voice called out in rage, his
eyes could not contain such emotion anymore, too tired, sandbags holding them
open, a book pried open by an eager reader, allowing all emotion flow out of
them until nothing but fatigue and empty pages remained.
The boy giggled at his elder’s attempt to reprimand him.
“Oh, excuse me, oh legendary Hero of yore, I did not mean to offend such a
profoundly gallant and honored champion of evil.” He swooped through the Hero,
sending shivers up the man’s spine, the fury swiftly leaving him, as a mistress
does once she is satisfied, out searching for better prey, and leaving nothing
behind but an empty shell.
When the boy moved to face his opponent once again, all
humor had left his face, replaced with a look of disappointment. “You sicken
me, old man, truly,” he spat cruelly, a look of burning hatred about his face.
“How could you let yourself become this, a hermit of no accomplishment, a man
so consumed with his own despair that he cannot even bring himself to escape it
in his dreams?”
“Because of you!” he cried out, fury and a deep,
loathing finding him once again, yet not for the boy, but himself. But he wouldn’t
let this fledgling see it in his eyes, turning away to walk to his chest of
clothes, calling behind him, “You know full well you’re the cause of these
infernal nightmares!”
Surely the Hero could have scared this young ghost off
long ago. He was the Hero after all; he had not earned this title for nothing.
So why didn’t he rid himself of this pestilence once and for all? Tyler’s words
echoed in his ears as the Hero felt the truth slam into his chest again and
again, trying to escape his body, a genie trapped in a lamp for a century too
long. But the Hero had held onto these feelings of remorse for too long now, he
couldn’t bring himself to let it go. It’s all he lived for anymore; he had
nothing left. The boy was his life-line. Ironic,
no? the Hero thought to himself, bitter, as he always was.
He slipped on a pair of pants, an old, rugged corduroy
rag. As he put them on, his fingers rubbed across a long rip that ran down the
side of his right leg. Tyler, seeing this, cackled, nodding to himself. “Face
the truth, fool! Face it in your memories, think back, for the truth of the
matter remains in that which has occurred, not what is now, for now is a moment
ago, and soon enough it’s far behind you, a infinitesimal ant in the universe
of your life. Remember that ant from long ago, the one that left you that
memento. Certainly you remember it!”
“…….. Certainly,” the Hero hoarsely whispered as he
crashed to the floor, staring blankly at the ceiling as he lied there, years in
the past.
Rising to his feet, he looked into the feral of eyes of that wolverine of
a person, eyes bloodshot and claws long and ragged, perfect for tearing the
flesh off another. Long, shaggy hair fell from his head, chest, forearms, and
shins, as dark as his soul had become, and as long as each twisted nail,
roughly eight inches or so. Its sad excuse of a home reflected the owner, a
boulder crudely torn from a coal black mountain, as tall as a horse, and as
wide as a two handed great sword lain on its side. The beast stood out in the
expanse of graying soil, cracked and forlorn from lack of water. The ground
spread for what seemed like an eternity in all directions, as if the boulder
had once been the plug to an ancient lake, lost in the passing of time.
The Hero had at first been confused and confounded by
the monster’s choice of a residence, as a person could see the creature sitting
cross-legged, meditating patiently, on the rock formation from miles off. But,
as he moved closer, he saw that this very simple fact was why the creature
chose the black island in the sea of brown. This was more effective than any
sign of deterrence could ever hope to be; a sign only held words of danger,
while his presence was a promise of terrors to be. Yet, upon closer inspection of his foe, the Hero
saw an even stronger truth, for within its eyes, a strong sense of arrogance
resided, radiating throughout his body like a disgusting plague of egotism. He had always been a cocky boy, hadn’t he?
His isolation had only worsened this, strengthening the illness beyond the
healing capabilities of even a seraph.
The Hero’s flesh crawled as he looking fearfully up at
his foe, still perched upon his rock despite the Hero’s close proximity, only a
few feet from plunging his worn, tired excuse of a sword into its knurled flesh.
Sensing the worn traveler’s presence through its thin, translucent eyelids, the
deformed monster’s cackling surrounding the Hero, like a boa constrictor wrapping
its harsh body around his neck. The lids slid open, as smooth as a drawer and
with the sliminess of an octopuses legs dragging across the seaweed-covered sea
floor, like freshly formed butterfly wings stretching out for the first time.
What rested underneath looked as if they were chipped from the very rock he sat
on, groping at the Hero’s body. He realized to his chagrin and rage that, to
this wretch, the figure standing before it was just another book to study; he
was staring intently into its familiar’s eyes, tearing the pages that held the
Hero’s thoughts out of his head before they were even written down. The memory
of a young lad devouring book after book in his old armchair flashed across the
Hero’s mind. He saw, sadly, that now all he ate was his own self-satisfaction
and the flesh won in battle.
A growl escaped the creature’s slobbering jaws as it calmly
sat on its haunches, a sickeningly smug smirk slashed across his face, another
scar on its crude, beaten body. “Surely, you don’t mean to do this…” He wasn’t
sure whether the familiar face was asking or stating, wishing he could see his
ally-turned-enemy’s true intensions.
“Shut up, little fool!” the Hero cried out, fire burning
in his eyes. He almost charged, losing himself amidst the anger and anguish,
the recipes to a sickeningly bitter defeat. But he caught himself. Attempting
to goad his foe forward, he motioned towards himself, a silent challenge crying
out louder than all their incessant yelling. With a cackle and a grin cracked
across his face, the beastly figure launched itself, pushing off the rough rock
onto its opponent’s soft chest, growling ferociously. Struggling, he tried to
pull away, only to feel a stab of pain as a single claw dug into his leg,
slipping through his skin as easily as a finger does through an envelope’s seal.
“You’re not getting away again, Master. Never again can I allow that.”
The apprentice ripped away from his perch, tearing his
true body from the back of the beast, much to the Hero’s shock and disgust. First
emerged the head, pulling out as a swimmer would out of the water, eyes
fluttering at the sudden exposure to the light of day. Muscular arms shoved the
rest of him out, grimy, bloodstained feet kicking off the creature’s rump. Where
he had been, a blotchy, pus-ridden silhouette remained, awaiting for its
resident’s return. The body perched atop the Hero shuddered stiff, suddenly
becoming cold jailer’s chains, keeping him pinned to the ground. Pain coursed
through his leg as blood pulsed from his wound, but he ignored it, all
attention focused on his apprentice, or what was left. What crept towards him
was not the young man he had left behind to hold his life together while he was
gone, but a pale sliver of bone. With a torso as wide as a lantern, the tall,
bald being strode towards him with the air of an emperor. The Hero hardly
noticed a broken bone was clutched in his opponent’s left hand, as it
practically blended in with his pasty skin. Some
things never change, I guess. That he had simply been left handed had been
one of the strongest attributes of the boy’s fighting style. Many a foe had fallen
to his blunted blade, most swordsmen unfamiliar in the defense of a sword
coming at them from what they considered to be the wrong side of their body.
As the nude figure finally reached him, the Apprentice
looked down on the Hero’s face with bulging, blue eyes, as arrogant as his
puppet’s. Once, kindness and a hint of shyness had mingled with the audacity. Now,
all that swam in the pools of ostentation was pomposity and pretentiousness,
simply more of the same. It was clear to the Hero that his Apprentice had discarded
all the humanity of his former self, now simply a murderer, heartless,
friendless, and hopeless.
Calmly, the Apprentice looked away from his previous
master and into the sky as if the blueprints to his clever plan could be found
there. Yellowed teeth curled into a wicked smile. “I knew. I knew all along.
Knew from that moment. The moment you KILLED YER OWN WIFE!” he screeched abruptly,
lashing out with his foot, a cobra striking its prey, slamming into the side of
the Hero’s face, pent up furor fueling the crazed kick. Blood pooled in the
Hero’s one cheek, forcing him to drink from the sour cup, the communion at his
own funeral.
The ragged man searched for the words, an explanation, a
means to justify his actions. Every word was a battle for him, as his emotions
clashed in worn armor, fighting one another, time and time again, neither side
having won any of their numerous encounters. “She… had turned. Turned away… away
from-”
“You?” He cackled at that, his laugh the sound of
ripping cloth, as if his fragile insides tore with every laugh. “Who could
blame her? You had been gone a year already, off on your absurd expedition for
world peace, you fool. I knew this was a farce all along. From the very start,
I did.”
“Do you think repeating yourself will make what you say
any more believable?” the Hero queried contemptuously, fed up with the nonsense
spouting from the boy’s lips.
“Do you think that insulting me will make your situation
any better?” the Apprentice retorted smugly. His eyes grazed upon his opponent’s
body, drinking in the beautiful sight of smooth, pink flesh. Sure, it had a few
cuts or gashes here or there, but he wasn’t about to become picky about his
food. He let out a sigh of content and excitement. “I have not eaten any meat
in ages. You should have come sooner;
it has been tough feasting on maggots for so long, waiting for you.”
The Hero had to turn his head quickly, as vomit spewed
from his chapped lips, most of it running across the ground and back onto his
own face, adding insult to injury. Rather than dejected, the Apprentice was
merely annoyed by the outburst. “Great, now I’m gonna have to clean up all
this. Can’t have Byrun steppin’ in it; it’ll make our rock all gross and rank.”
The creature that straddled the Hero snorted at the sound of its name.
“What, you’ve bestowed your own name upon this foul
thing?” This confused the Hero; why someone as prideful as Byrun would name
such a catastrophe of a living thing with his own alias was beyond the man’s
comprehension.
“You think I would honor that with my own name?!?” the Apprentice spat, the very suggestion
a poison to his lips. “No, no, that was never my true name. I knew that all
along, although I humored everyone with their little pet-name for me. You see,
I have no name. I know that may be hard for someone as foolish and inane as you
to understand, so I guess I need to explain.”
Now I know how it
must have felt for all the other children who grew up with him, the Hero
thought. Once Byrun would begin one of these conceited ramblings of his, you
knew you’d be listening to the drivel for a time to come.
“Now, surely you must comprehend that some of us in this
world are born with greater talents than others, no? Well, upon the discovery
of such a being, society has a sort of panic attack, as they realize that sheer
magnificence has been born amongst all the common folk, magnificence that could
one day rise to rule over the inept peasants. And, though it is clearly
gracious of Our Lord to present us with these immaculate beings to lead the
sheep to his bountiful harvests in the afterlife, these twits, clouded by their
sins and hate, see these gifts as the real demons, come to steal away their
lives of prosperity and luxury. So, they think, we should just kill the
beastlings before they grow up and take over, right? But, even they aren’t
dimwitted enough to realize that such an act would be a sin most unforgiveable,
a sin that they could not feign as being an accident that they were ever so
sorry for, for, in the eyes of God, all truths are revealed. So, they instead
tried to disguise these awesome powers, both from the public and the owner,
behind crudely made aliases, names to mask greatness so immaculately wondrous
that it need not- nay, could not have a name, for no name would do such a being
justice.
“And, you would never have known it, but I am one of
these beings, in the flesh! I mean, that is not all that surprising; I
always knew there was something different about me that made me stand out of
the mindless fodder I was forced to suffer through all those years. All their
petty complaints about their hair and their clothes and their convoluted
struggles over the love of one another. All they did was confirm my own superiority,
for whom would need the companionship of another to love them is someone who
has never felt God’s love, not truly, pushing it aside for more physical
pleasures.
“You were one of them all along. I knew it from
the moment I met you.”
“Just because I lived happily with a wife who cared for
me doesn’t make me any the lesser to you,” the Hero cut off the rant, tired of
the mindless ravings of this shell of the boy he once knew; kind, considerate,
always looking out for those down on their luck. Sure, he had always been a
little pompous… well, more than a little, but all the same, he had never spoken
like this. He had never-
A swift blow to his face brought his thoughts back to
reality. “You don’t associate her with the ilk you call brethren!” A look of
contorted rage was spread across his face as he looked down on the Hero, his
eyes blue caterpillars poking out of his face. After a moment or two, the
muscles in his face slowly relaxed, his air of cool control having returned to
him. “You are actually right for once. It is not because of your marriage that
you are a complete waste of life. Well, not a complete waste, I guess- I assume
you assisted me in realizing the power I had in me all along. And for that, I
will be a gracious Messiah, and make your death swift and painless. But first
you must understand why you are required to die.
“You see…” he laughed at this. “Well you do not see, not
yet. But let me explain. It’s rather simple, so hopefully you have the brain
capacity to-“
“ENOUGH!!! Just stop, I caaaaaaaaaaaaaan’t-” A sudden
burst of adrenaline shooting through him, the Hero thrust his adversary off
him, high into the air. The monster showed no reaction, simple readied its body
to land upon his captive once again. Yet, as it landed, it found a sword also
awaited him, the blade kissing its heart deftly, angry blood spouting in all
directions. Again, its body was thrown into the empty sky, only this time the
corpse was flung headlong into its master, sending the boy sprawling. As gore pulsed from its open wound, the
Apprentice’s face flashed through numerous emotions, unsure of which to call on
now, as this had never been in his script. He fumbled for his lines, yet none
sprang to mind, so silently he lied there, waiting for a reminder, some sort of
cue to push the production forward.
The Hero pushed the body from the Apprentice, freeing
his now disheveled enemy. He couldn’t allow their relationship to end like
that; a connection like theirs should never be tossed aside, even if it was an
unsalvageable mess. No, it should be respected to the very end, and that’s what
the Hero intended to do.
The Hero’s shadow flung itself across the Apprentice, a
net holding the boy in place, as the sword positioned itself for the killing
blow. A look of sadness crossed the boy’s eyes. “So this is what it comes to,
hmmm? You killed her, and now you are going to kill me, is that it?” A few
tears dragged themselves across his craggy, rough face. “How could you kill
her? HOW COULD YOU???!?!?!?”
“I did what was best for her, you idiot!” The Hero
couldn’t believe what he was hearing. “You have no idea what she was like, what
had become of her!!! I did this for her… I did everything for her! I protected
her from those circling vultures who called themselves nobles and wanted to
defile her, day after day in that village of morons! I volunteered for this
ridiculous journey because I could bring a brighter tomorrow for her. And as I’m
sent off on this obscure and hopeless journey through hell and back, she goes
to them with open arms and open legs, accepting their seeds and coin like a common
prostitute, just another whore in this damned world. And if I recall,” his sword
shuddered from his exertion of self-control, “I left YOU behind to watch after
her, to ensure something like that wouldn’t happen!”
“You think I didn’t try to save her? You think I didn’t
fight her tooth and nail, trying to show her that it wasn’t worth it to go to
them, that there was someone right… right THERE to take care of her, lo… LOVE
her???”
And with that, the truth smashed into the Hero, a
spiraling bullet ripping through his head, a knife of horrific truth cutting
through the gelatinous batch of lies. “How could you??? You drove her from her
own home, from safety!!!!!” His sword sliced at the Apprentice’s bare torso,
only to be parried by the bone he clutched 0fiercely. Leaping to his feet, the
Apprentice initiated their dance of death. Both were well practiced in the
choreography, but with such distractions whirling about their heads, neither
could be sure of a victor.
“I did no such thing, you filthy swine!” The Apprentice
lashed out with his bones as deftly as he did with his words, landing a hit on
the Hero’s arm, rewarded with a grunt of pain. “I could never send away such a
beautiful creature, for no one could have ever claimed to be her superior.”
“Oh, you didn’t send her away willingly, that much is
clear,” A look of pity and disgust crossed the Hero’s face as he slashed back
in answer, only hitting empty air. “No, you wooed her, tried to make her love
you as she had loved me, you sad child. How far did you go, huh?” Anger
gathered in his breast as he advanced. “Did you simply attempt a poor excuse
for a kiss, or did you try and force your way into her bed????”
The Apprentice cried out in pain, as his pride and left
hand were lost in one quick stroke, sent sailing through the blue sky, and lost
in the expansive brown sea. And, like that, the sniveling boy of yesteryear
returned, the pathetic child who would come sobbing to his Hero after his
father had beaten him, leaving him a bloody mess. But now the wounds ran too
deep to heal, and there was not to do but put the boy out of his misery.
“Yu-yu-yu-you don’t understaaaaaaaaaaaaaand!” the
Apprentice wailed through his pain. “I loved her, with all my he-he-heart, all
my being, but she just couldn’t exce-e-e-ept me. Me!!! At first I tried to show
her the errors of her disinterest, pushing my way closer and closer to her, my
kisses creeping their way to her lips. But that only pushed her further and
further away from me!!! I had to find a way to show her my passion towards her.
But… after that night… that NIGHT,” fresh sobs sprang from his lips, words
tumbling out amidst them. “She wouldn’t look at me. I tried to talk to her; I
told her that it was right, it had to be, that we were made for one another, two
prefect beings among all the common filth in this desolate land. But… she
wouldn’t listen. So she ran. Ran off looking for you. She hoped that by going
to the empire, she might be able to help you from the inside, find you, save
you from this madness. And look at how you repaid her??? But all you can say is
how I failed, how I didn’t stop her from tromping off AFTER YOU. I tried
running after her, entering into the services of fools to save her from YOUR
falsehoods, the madness you cast upon her. Certainly you didn’t expect me to try
and stop her, to coop up such a lovely nightingale in that dinky thing you called
a home against her will?”
“But fucking her against her will, that was all fine and
dandy, hmmm???” His weeping, his pleas, they meant nothing to this broken man
anymore. With one swift motion, the Hero scooped up the bone from where the
Apprentice had dropped it and smashed it upwards into the boy’s chin. As his
body smashed to the ground, the bone beat him further and further into the
dirt, spreading a blood red canvas around the horrifying portrait.
As he did the dirty deed, the Hero was reminded of a
time in his youth, when a few neighborhood boys had owned a dog for many years,
teaching it tricks and playing games with it. That is, until they forgot to
feed it. Out of the poor beast’s hunger, it attacked someone. And just like
that, it was an feral animal that needed to be put down. The boys balked at the
task, but it was their job, their responsibility to do away with it. Tears
mingled with blood as the Hero cried with frustration and sadness, wondering if
he was the one who truly drove this kindly boy to be just another savage beast
that needed to be done away with. His mind left his body, trying to forget
where he was and what he was doing as again and again the bone came smashing
down, until nothing but a red lake and an empty, torn skin remained. The bone
dropped with a splash, a tombstone for the closest thing he ever had for a son.
For hours he walked, yet still the red blemish could be seen, bright on the
brown face the Hero tread upon. A stumble sent the weak and weary man crashing
to the ground, where he lied for three days and two nights, mourning what could
have been and what was. He mourned the loved ones he lost. He mourned how his
trek was now devoid of all meaning, that he was traveling to resolve that which
no longer mattered. He would have merely given up right there, ending both his
journey and life with one swift stroke. Yet, on the third night a sudden
thought brought him back to his feet. If he stopped here and now, the deaths of
his Wife, of his Apprentice… they would have been for nothing. So he forced
himself to rise.
The Hero rose from the icy cold floor, tears frozen to his face. His eyes
wandered to the window; outside, the sun was rising again. How long had he been
lying here? A day? Two? There was no way to know for sure-
“Five days,” the boy
said softly, twiddling his thumbs sadly as he hovered just above the floor. He
shook his head sadly, unsure of what more there was to say. Yet, as he looked
back, the old man was gone. He heard the slamming of a door at the far end of
the room as the Hero made his way outside. He hadn’t been outside in years.
Without hesitation,
the body flashed to his only companion’s side, searching his thoughts for what
was going on.
And what he saw
horrified him.
The dreams had begun
to become the man’s reality, taking over the world around him. How could the
boy have been so stupid??? Driving this empty shell so far to the brink of
destruction, what did he expect would happen?
The Hero walked out onto the balcony, on which the Villain stood. A body
as slim as his false smile, long and narrow fingers moved to slick back jet
black hair, emerald eyes staring straight ahead at his foe. “I see you’ve
finally made it all the way here.” His smirk could be heard in every word, a
sly snake coiling around his syllables.
The Hero didn’t
respond, simply shuddering with adrenaline and rage. His hands bleed from
gripping his sword so fiercely. Seeing this, the Villain tutted. “Now now,
there’s no need for that. In fact, you won’t be needing that flimsy thing at
all.” Without hesitation, he slipped a dagger out from his right sleeve and
stabbed himself in the chest, just inches from his own heart. A gasp escaped
his lips, but something more like pleasure than pain, an ecstatic cry of
inertia.
A cry of rage and
horror escaped the Hero’s lips as he charged his foe, sword outstretched for
the kill. The Villain, cackled at this, knocking the sorry piece of scrap metal
aside with his bare fist, the weapon tumbling over the edge of the cliff. His
other hand snatched the Hero’s throat, a deft strike snapping outwards, going
for the kill. Only the Hero’s legs moved as he was lifted into the air, his
feet swaying side to side in defeat, branches swaying in the breeze.
The boy tried to grasp onto the man’s throat out of desperation, wanting
to shake him awake. “Cummon, snap out of it! You can’t do this damn it! I don’t
want to die just yet!!!!” Yet, the man just kept standing on his tip-toes,
barely breathing, eyes bulging, his false sword, a stick he had scooped up off
the ground, still tumbling down the supposedly endless woodland ridge.
“You sorry excuse for a man,” the Villain whispered in the Hero’s ear, “You
really think I was simply going to let you kill me? No, no, only I will kill
myself.” A cough escaped his lips, accompanied by a spray of red that dribbled
down his chin. “I knew that one day there would come someone to try and tear
this world away from me, to make everything right again. And that I simply
wouldn’t allow. So, now I will die by my own hand; there will be no hero in
this tale, only a scapegoat to take the pointless pride for nothing. People may
speak of your deeds, yet they will all be false, for in the end you are nothing
but a simpleton come from the village of fools to strike down a god, one that
cannot be killed by any mortal man. And once the world hears of that, well,
then it will consume itself in its confusion. ‘How is this possible?’ they’ll
ask. ‘Is there no good in this world?’ they’ll plead. And, ever so slowly, the
land will cave in on itself, killing all caught beneath its sorry roof.
“And, with that
thought, I leave you.” A quick twist of the knife later, the Hero and Villain
crashed to the ground, two dead men, but only one of them could still move. The
Hero rose to his feet, shaking from head to toe.
A scream burst from
his lips, a horrendous explosion that tore at his very soul. The Villain had
ripped all meaning from his life, tearing his purpose asunder. There was
nothing left for him here.
Closing his eyes,
the Hero, slipped over the edge of the balcony, falling to the rocky valley
below.
For the second time, the boy felt himself fall for what felt like
forever, except this time there would be no getting back up, no rising from the
dead. This time he knew deep down would be the last. Tears streamed down his
face in defeat. He heard the Villain’s voice crack at his mind, a vicious pain
that had not left him for all those years.
Slowly, the Hero rose to a sitting position, looking around at the rocky
expanse that lay before him.
“What are you doing,
you sorry sack of bones?” An excited laugh rent the air. Looking up, the Hero
saw a ghostly presence swirl about his head. There was something familiar about
that face…
The boy hovered over the dead shell of the man he had become, the man he
had tormented for years on end. And now he had to bid it all goodbye. The Hero
looked up at himself. “I couldn’t do it,” he gasped sadly, tears streaming down
his cheeks. “I swore to myself I would kill him this time.”
The boy hushed him.
“No need to linger on that any longer.” The man slowly nodded at that, laying
his head on the ground. His eyes closed, violent shutters crashing down for the
last time. The boy sobbed on his own body for a while before disappearing in a
blink of despair.
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