Good Bye

A mad sadness eats at my heart as I may never hear from this person again. So this goes out to you, though I doubt you'll ever read it.

Good Bye

My heart fell
from heaven's heights,
flashing out of sight
and out of control,
plunging with abandon
like a rusty nail
into His fleshy wrist,
violent currents of pain
washing up and down his body,
a tsunami of suffering.
I saw your hurt
in every word,
yet you refused to take my own
phrases of faith
in a better tomorrow;
my hand has been cast aside,
a limp rag no longer of use,
lying on the ground
to soak up my tears
as they crash down out of disbelief
at my frustrating failure
to make things right
in this damned and deceitful world.
I lie down my head in defeat,
waiting for my mind to fully process
the loss that I know is there.
Soon it will rise, this realization,
a gross bile in my stomach,
ready to lurch from my chest
and show the world
the frustration and hurt
I now carry in my core,
a constant companion
in a world that knows no forgiveness.