Moving On

Is it time to move on? ...I can't be sure. Not ever. But if I don't sooner or later, the world will pass me by, and I'll be so consumed in a false hope that I may eventually lose myself in the darkness. So, whether I'm ready or not, here I go.


Moving On

For the longest of time
you've had me tied down,
always there
in my mind's eye.
For too long
I cherished the dreams
and the nightmares
that you starred in,
my mind your personal stage.
For a year
I had not seen the beauty
shining from you
both inside and out.
Yet for weeks
I've been enraptured by your presence
your very existence in my life.
For now on
I am a changed man,
and for the better,
all thanks to you.
And forever will I remember you
and love you for it
knowing that I'd never be here
without your guiding hand.
But, for now
I must break the chain that holds me fast,
the leash I've been tugged along by,
the infatuation that has bogged my mind.
For the time being
I must let go,
or be consumed
by the chaotic feelings within.
For my emotions
have rebelled for too long,
holding a full frontal war
in the pit of my stomach.

Our friendship will never die.
Not by my hands.
I care about us too much.
I can't say I'll ever let go.
I can't bare to lie to you ever.
But I can say that, for now, I'll let go.
For I hear the hurt in your voice.
See the worry in your eyes.
Feel the heartache on your breath.
And hurting you was never my intention.
Clearly, I have failed you in that respect.
Forever I am sorry for that.
My mission now is to relish our friendship.
For you are, by far, the best friend I have ever had the privilege to have.
And know that I will always love you.
Know that I will always be there for you.
Know that I'll never leave your life.
For my debt to you is un-repayable.
And, if you ever feel something, let me know.
That doorway will still be open for a while.
For one does not simply get over something like this.
Don't ever hide your emotions from me, I beg of you.
I can take the hurt, the pain.
I've seen that before.
And it will hurt much less than knowing you hide the truth from my eyes.
Much less than knowing what I think is lies.
So try your best to entrust in me.
Just as I will always entrust in you.
I mean, what are best friends for, if not for that much?
So here's to moving on.
May we never move apart.